PART 3 — THE CHOICE
Chapter 7 — Monday Was Still Coming
I barely slept Saturday night.
Several times, I woke in my apartment and instinctively reached toward the other side of the bed before remembering Seth wasn’t there.
We hadn’t lived together yet.
My belongings were supposed to move into his townhouse at month’s end.
I’d already packed four boxes.
One contained kitchen items, another books, and a third winter clothes.
The fourth held purchases for our married life: matching towels, new sheets, and two mugs labeled Mr. and Mrs.
Standing beside them Sunday morning, I briefly wanted to smash the mugs.
Instead, I brewed coffee.
Then I sat at the kitchen table crying until it turned cold.
Mom called around nine.
“Have you eaten anything?”
“Not really.”
“I’m bringing breakfast.”
“Mom, you don’t have to.”
“I know.”
Twenty minutes later, she arrived with bagels, orange juice, and a folder of wedding receipts.
We spent an hour examining the expenses.
Some vendors had been paid completely, while others offered partial refunds.
The reception coordinator had arranged for most of the prepared food to be distributed instead of discarded.
There were cancellation penalties, lost deposits, and difficult discussions ahead about splitting the remaining costs with Seth.
Mom didn’t pretend money was irrelevant.
She knew I couldn’t afford to dismiss those losses.
But she never suggested that the financial consequences justified proceeding with the marriage.
Eventually, she asked what had happened.
I explained everything.
The childcare arrangement.
My career.
Seth’s loan.
His dishonesty.
She listened without interrupting.
Afterward, she remained silent for a while.
Then she said, “I wish he’d been the man you thought he was.”
I nearly cried again.
I wished that too.
After Mom left, I checked my phone.
Seth had sent six messages.
The first two contained apologies.
The third explained his financial pressure. The fourth complained that Heather had requested repayment for months.
The fifth proposed meeting Reverend Thomas to reconcile.
The sixth, received at 10:43 a.m., read:
If you could just help Heather for a week or two, I think everyone would calm down. We can deal with us after that.
I stared at the message.
Even now, Seth was making reconciliation conditional on my willingness to solve the problem he’d created.
I drafted a reply, erased it, and tried again.
Finally, I sent:
I will not be taking care of Heather’s children. Please contact me only about exchanging our belongings and handling the remaining wedding expenses. I need space.
He answered immediately.
I can’t believe you’re being this cold.
I placed my phone facedown.
I wanted to remind him how deeply I’d loved him, how I’d imagined growing old together, and how I’d entered the church Saturday believing I was marrying my closest friend.
Nothing about those feelings was cold.
But I was exhausted from explaining my emotions to someone who used them to challenge my decisions.
Around noon, Heather called.
I hesitated before answering, thinking about her children.
“Hi,” I said.
“I’m sorry to bother you.”
“It’s okay.”
“I wanted you to know I’m trying to figure things out.”
A child spoke in the background.
Heather asked Ben to wait.
“I called Colin last night,” she said. “He said his schedule is full this week, but I’m asking him to see what he can move.”
“Good.”
“I also left a message with my supervisor.”
I thought for a moment.
“Heather, have you checked the county’s childcare resource-and-referral service? They might be able to tell you which licensed providers have openings.”
“I didn’t know there was one.”
“I’ll send you the information.”
“Thank you.”
I glanced at the clock.
She was due at work in less than twenty-four hours.
I understood her anxiety.
“Did you explain the situation to Colin?” I asked.
“Some of it.”
“He’s their father. He needs to be part of the solution.”
Heather sighed.
“I know. We’ve been struggling with schedules since we separated.”
Their circumstances were complicated, but that didn’t make finding childcare impossible.
Nor did it automatically transfer responsibility to me.
After a brief silence, Heather spoke again.
“Natalie, I need to apologize properly.”
“You already apologized.”
“Not for everything.”
I sat down.
“I’m listening.”
She inhaled.
“When Seth told me you wanted to stay home, I was relieved. So relieved that I didn’t ask the questions I should have.”
I waited.
“I knew it was a huge amount of work. I knew it would save me a lot of money. And I didn’t stop to think about what you were giving up.”
She sounded close to crying.
“I told myself you must really want to do it. Because that was easier than asking you and risking the answer being no.”
I looked through the window.
A neighbor was unloading groceries.
It was an ordinary Sunday in an ordinary neighborhood, yet my life felt completely overturned.
“I do love your kids,” I said.
“I know.”
“But loving them doesn’t mean I agreed to raise them.”
Heather remained silent briefly.
“You’re right.”
I expected an objection to follow.
None came.
Instead, she continued.
“I have to figure out how to take care of my children. That’s my responsibility, not yours.”
For the first time, our conversation felt genuinely direct, without Seth influencing either of us.
After hanging up, I sent Heather the childcare resources.
Then I returned to my bedroom.
My wedding dress still hung on the closet door because I’d been too exhausted to put it away.
I ran my fingertips over its lace sleeve.
I remembered visiting the bridal shop with Mom.
She’d called me beautiful, and I’d studied my reflection while imagining a future with Seth.
A husband.
A home.
Perhaps children of our own.
I sat on my bed and cried.
Not because I regretted leaving.
Because I’d wanted that future so desperately.
Around four, Heather sent another message.
Colin managed to switch two shifts. He can take the kids Tuesday and Wednesday. I have one personal day left, and my supervisor approved it for Monday. I’m still working on Thursday and Friday.
I read it twice.
Her difficulties hadn’t magically disappeared.
She still needed arrangements for the remainder of the week.
Perhaps she’d have to take unpaid leave or pay more for another childcare provider than she could comfortably manage.
But she was actively finding solutions.
And on Monday, her children would be cared for without me sacrificing my job.
I replied:
I’m glad you have a plan for the first few days. I hope you find something that works.
Heather answered:
Thank you. And Natalie? I’m sorry about your wedding.
I stared at her words before typing:
Me too.
That evening, I prepared my clothes for work.
Navy trousers, a pale blue blouse, and comfortable shoes.
I set my alarm for 6:30.
It was a simple routine.
Yet after learning how thoroughly Seth had tried to control my decisions, choosing how to spend Monday morning felt especially meaningful.
Chapter 8 — The First Monday
At 7:45 Monday morning, I parked outside the dental practice.
I remained in my car for a moment, gripping the steering wheel.
I’d been using that parking lot for nearly seven years.
The brick building and its street-facing windows looked exactly as they always had.
Nothing here had changed.
But my personal life felt unrecognizable.
My phone buzzed.
Paige had messaged:
You okay?
I replied:
I’m at work.
She answered:
Proud of you. Call me tonight.
I managed my first smile of the morning.
Then I put my phone away and entered the building.
Dr. Bennett had already arrived.
She glanced at me and quietly closed her office door.
“Natalie, I heard the wedding didn’t happen.”
I nodded.
“I’m sorry,” she said.
“Thank you.”
“Do you need a few days off?”
I considered the offer.
Part of me wanted to retreat home, shut the curtains, and remain in bed until the heartbreak eased.
But another part welcomed the familiar environment where I understood my responsibilities.
“I’d rather work,” I said. “If that’s okay.”
“Of course.”
She hesitated.
“We can postpone our conversation about the promotion.”
My eyes moved to the folder on her desk.
I’d worked toward this opportunity for years.
I’d stayed late to master our patient management system, completed insurance billing courses, trained three employees, and helped reorganize scheduling as the practice expanded.
This wasn’t an opportunity someone had simply handed me.
I’d earned it.
“Actually,” I said, “I’d like to talk about it now.”
Dr. Bennett smiled.
“All right.”
We reviewed the position’s responsibilities.
Staff schedules, vendor agreements, insurance compliance, and employee training.
We discussed the salary increase and opportunities for additional management education over the coming year.
Then she asked whether I still wanted the job.
I remembered Seth’s confident announcement at the church.
She’s leaving the dental office.
He’d spoken as though my entire career could be removed from our future without consulting me.
I looked at Dr. Bennett.
“Yes,” I said. “I do.”
She extended her hand.
“Then congratulations, Natalie.”
I thanked her without crying.
But several minutes later, alone in the employee restroom, I stood by the sink, laughed at myself, and wiped away tears.
My wedding was gone.
So was the future I’d spent three years imagining.
But I hadn’t lost everything.
And I refused to abandon something I’d worked hard to achieve because Seth believed my time belonged to him.
The morning passed quickly.
A patient arrived late for a cleaning.
Our insurance software rejected a valid claim.
One hygienist needed help adjusting the afternoon appointments.
Ordinary workplace difficulties.
Problems I understood and could resolve.
Around noon, I checked my phone.
Heather had written:
Colin’s got the kids tomorrow and Wednesday. I’m meeting with a daycare director tomorrow afternoon about possible openings. Nothing definite yet, but at least we have a few days.
Another message followed.
I also told Seth the truck loan is still his responsibility.
I studied the screen.
Heather continued:
He said that wasn’t fair because he’d already made arrangements. I told him you never agreed to those arrangements, so they weren’t his to make.
I doubted Seth would repay her quickly.
Heather might need a formal repayment agreement or take further steps to recover the money.
But that was their responsibility to resolve.
For the first time, the proposed solution didn’t involve my unpaid labor.
Heather sent one final message.
You were always good to my kids. I’m sorry we made you feel like that meant you owed us something.
I read it carefully before responding.
I love those kids. That was never the problem.
She replied:
I know that now.
I put my phone away.
There were still plenty of practical matters ahead.
Seth and I had wedding bills to divide, gifts to return, personal belongings to exchange, and difficult questions to answer.
Some of his relatives might never understand why I’d canceled the ceremony.
They might accuse me of overreacting or insist I should have given him another chance.
Others would probably argue that marriage required compromise.
I didn’t disagree with the importance of compromise.
But genuine compromise meant two people deciding together.
It couldn’t begin with deception.
And it couldn’t require a woman to surrender her career, time, and right to make choices simply because she’d become someone’s wife.
After my shift, I drove home.
The apartment was quiet.
There were no children’s backpacks beside the entrance, no diaper bag on the counter, and no little voices calling for me.
I imagined how the morning might have unfolded if Seth’s plan had succeeded.
Maddie would have asked for crayons.
Ben would have wanted pancakes.
Owen would have lifted his arms, asking me to pick him up.
And I would have cared for them lovingly.
I’d have prepared breakfast, cleaned their faces, comforted them, and helped them through the day.
That was simply who I was.
Seth had known it.
And he’d relied on it.
I wasn’t certain I could ever forgive that.
I removed my shoes and collected the mail.
There was a thank-you card from a patient and my electricity bill.
Everyday things.
I placed them beside my keys.
Then I noticed a little white box at the edge of the kitchen counter.
My wedding ring.
I’d brought it to the church Saturday in my purse, intending to give it to Paige before the ceremony.
It had never been placed on my finger.
I opened the box.
The plain gold band reflected the afternoon sunlight.
For weeks, I’d wondered what wearing it would feel like.
Now I wondered how long I’d have worn it before discovering what Seth believed marriage entitled him to demand.
My phone rang.
Seth.
I stared at his name.
Part of me wanted to answer.
I wanted him to grasp how much he’d destroyed and say something proving he finally understood why I’d left.
But I remembered his last request.
If you could just help Heather for a week or two…
Even his apologies had carried expectations.
I allowed the call to go to voicemail.
Then I shut the ring box.
Tomorrow, I’d discuss returning it with Paige and arrange for Seth to collect the few belongings he’d left at my apartment.
We would resolve the expenses.
I’d answer questions when I felt ready.
And someday, I hoped to remember my wedding day without crying.
But I wouldn’t devote my life to convincing someone that I deserved a voice in my own future.
That evening, I prepared dinner for myself.
I ate at the kitchen table while reviewing the training materials Dr. Bennett had provided.
My new position wouldn’t be easy.
There would be demanding days, unhappy patients, challenging coworkers, and mistakes I’d need to learn from.
But I’d chosen those responsibilities myself.
Before bed, I opened my calendar.
Monday’s entry still read:
First day of married life.
I deleted it.
Then I created another reminder for the following week.
Office manager training — 9:00 AM.
I set down my phone.
For the first time since Saturday, I felt a little hopeful about what came next.
Seth hadn’t simply forgotten to ask for my consent.
He’d deliberately counted on marrying me before I had the chance to refuse.